I am a woman and I constantly feel trapped.
Trapped by the decisions I make because they are often affected by someone else, trapped by the steps that I take because they are closely monitored by someone else, trapped by the clothes that I wear because I am constantly judged by someone else, trapped by the tears that fall from my eyes because I will constantly be questioned by someone else.
As a woman I feel trapped because I am made to exist for someone else, from childhood we are brought up as care givers for others and often not for ourselves. We are taught to be polite, to kneel down before our elders, to take up the kitchen for this is the duty that’s first taught, to always put others first and not yourself!
As a woman I am constantly dismayed and disregarded, only considered when there’s an opportunity to be misused and tricked into the acts of lust and deceit. My body considered a tool to the man and not the treasure and temple that it may be.
As a woman I want to escape, escape the rampage of being caged, of being trapped in a body that’s never been praised or uplifted! I close my ears I block the passage ways of negativity and disgrace, I break the chains of fear to be ordinary and fear to never succeed!
I escape by thinking outside of the box and letting extraordinary set in. Getting an education and being able to think for myself without the constant need to be told what to do and when to do it, how to act and when to act it.
I escape by the feeling I get when I see that my hard work has been put to the test, when my bare hands and feet have felt have bled due to the hard work and labor of my fruit.
I am at peace when I know that I have inspired others by the way that I wear my crown.
As I escape I am free to feel, to love and to think because I am my own woman and this makes me limitless.
Ms. Musumba works as volunteer manager at SAFIGI Outreach Foundation Ltd, a not for profit organization based in Zambia with a vision to raise a generation where girls are empowered, equipped and fulfilled in every aspect of their life, for the development of the entire world. To know more about SAFIGI’s goals and activities, visit http://www.safetyfirstforgirls.org